you just broke my heart today telling me what you told me.
i'm sorry that you are everything for me.
i'm sorry for giving up all my biggest dreams just to be with you.
i'm sorry if i depend on you 24/7.
i'm sorry for loving you more than it's possible and dreaming about you every day and wanting
to me with you all the time.
i'm sorry for missing you the entire day... all the time that i'm without you.
i'm sorry... it's just too hard to understand life without you... to pass through it.
i did all i wanted to do... i'm done... all i wanted was to be with you forever.
i'm pretty sure i'm the most jealous person on earth... but baby, you make me
lose my head, go crazy, be nuts... and my world is all about you.
everything you want, you need, you ask for...
you know when someone really loves you if this person is able to give up
it's deepest dream just to be with the loved one.
and that's what i have been doing. all i want is to be with you, right by your side.
and i know that i act up for every little thing.
but honey, i'm not the only one.
i lost faith in love until i met you.
until i met you i didn't think love as possible.
i used to think that it was crazy to love someone the way i love you.
that it was insane to be happier than ever only with this one person.
and i was pretty sure i found my prince charming. you are pretty much
everything i've ever asked for.
maybe i should just let things go the way they are supposed to be.
but i just can't.
i'm here crying because you are not by my side... because you are not here
with me.
because i know you don't love me they way i love you.
i know you don't want to be with me now... and oh baby, it hurts, it hurts so
much that it's physical pain.
a stupid message fucked up everything we had during these 8 months.
i've traveled all around, i've met a lot of people, i've done so many things...
but nothing was as good as being with you... knowing that someone really loves
you.
now i just want to disappear... and i wish i couldn't cry.
sorry, but i love you too much to fucking lose you.
i know that if i lose you it will be all the same again, and i don't want it.
all i want is to be right by your side.
i really do love you f.

Don't tell your secret to anyone
Because ideas are vulnerable
As soon as you say your idea out loud
Then it can go and live on its own
And you will miss it oh so much
And you will wait for its return
And you will wish it were your own
But ideas that left never come back home
Don't tell your secret to anyone
Because ideas are vulnerable
As soon as you say your ideas out loud
Then they can go and live on their own without you
And you will miss them oh so bad
And you will wait for their return
And you will wish they were your own
But ideas that left will never come back home

I'm on the edge
Of not wanting to feel this way anymore
But I will still try to learn my lessons
There's no mistakes anyway
I know that

I saw it coming
I just thought that you should know
I'm feeling better every day
I'm only waiting if you stay
So don't feel bad
Your faith was an illusion
And you're as loyal as your faith
Will let you be

Your expectation
It's not hard to live without
I'm feeling better every day
And emptiness still leaves a space
So don't feel bad
You lost all your emotion
And may you find all your relations
Will keep you free

I see you out sometimes by coincidence
Been reading about you, I know where you've been
You don't know how much I liked you and I think of you
So much to tell you, to fill you in

Where you go
Is where I want to be
Wherever you go
Is where I want to be

I wonder if it's right to call you a friend
I remember your eyes, they made me way too late
Now if I'm standing at a party waiting for the train
I know you're out there, can't wait till we meet again

Where you go
Is where I want to be
Wherever you go
Is where I want to be

Where you go
Is where I want to be
Wherever you go
Is where I want you to lead me
To lead me

So much to tell you
I have to find you
It's time I see you
I wish we were alone
And it was late at night
I met you at a party
It was a crowded room
I couldn't hear you talking
You tried to hold my hand
And then you left without me
But don't you know that where you go
Is where I want to be

Champagne alguém?

Depois de umas taças de champagne ela virou pra mim e falou:
-Sabe Raíssa, a primeira impressão que as pessoas têm de você é totalmente diferente da verdadeira Raíssa. A verdadeira Raíssa é dificíl de se ver, de entender. A pessoa que a gente descobre é uma pessoa muito boa de coração que quer o bem dos outros e é capaz de amar de verdade, o mais puro e verdadeiro amor reconhecendo as pessoas por dentro. Sejam elas amigos, familiares ou amantes. Acredite Raíssa seu amor é puro como de uma criança. Se você gosta, você gosta de verdade verdadeira, aquele gostar que você até baixa seu orgulho e Raíssa, quem te conhece sabe o relacionamento entre você e seu orgulho. Quando você gosta de verdade, você abre mão de inúmeras coisas pra não entrar em discussão e sempre estar com a pessoa amada. Sabe Raíssa, sortudos são os que você ama. Mas vou parar por aqui que acho que bebi demais.
E eu falei:
-Também acho.
E ela terminou assim:
-Não se esqueça, você é uma mulher forte e que (ainda) tem amor para com as pessoas e acredita no potêncial das pessoas... sejam elas amigos, conhecidos, familiares, amantes... você ama, você se joga de cabeça.
E eu terminei:
-Champagne alguém?

SHOWS AQUI.

- The Mars Volta (April, 2008 - Chicago, IL)
- The Hives (May, 2008 - Milwaukee, WI)
- The Spinto Band (May, 2008 - Milwaukee, WI)
- Rilo Kiley (May, 2008 - Milwaukee, WI)
- The Kooks (June, 2008 - Milwaukee, WI)
- The Virgins (June, 2008 - Nylon Summer Tour, Milwaukee, WI)
- She Wants Revenge (June, 2008 - Nylon Summer Tour Milwaukee, WI)
- Blondie (June, 2008 - Summerfest, Milwaukee, WI)
- Matisyahu (June, 2008 - Summerfest, Milwaukee, WI)
- The Wailers (July, 2008 - Summerfest Milwaukee, WI)
- The Bravery (July, 2008 - Summerfest, Milwaukee, WI)
- The Black Keys (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Gogol Bordello (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Cat Power (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Bloc Party (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Radiohead (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Foals (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- MGMT (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Booka Shade (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Uffie (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Broken Social Scene (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Wilco (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Rage Against the Machine (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Brazilian Girls (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Chromeo (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Girl Talk (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- The National (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Kanye West (August, 2008 - Lollapalooza, Chicago, IL)
- Foo Fighters (August, 2008 - Harley Davidson Fest, Milwaukee, WI)
- Hot Chip (September, 2008 - Treasure Island, San Francisco, CA)
- Goldfrapp (September, 2008 - Treasure Island, San Francisco, CA)
- CSS (September, 2008 - Treasure Island, San Francisco, CA)
- Justice (September, 2008 - Treasure Island, San Francisco, CA)
- Kings of Leon (October, 2008 - San Francisco, CA)
- Death Cab fo Cutie (October, 2008 - Bridge School Benefit Concert, Mountain View, CA)
- Wilco (October, 2008 - Bridge School Benefit Concert, Mountain View, CA)
- Smashing Pumpkin (October, 2008 - Bridge School Benefit Concert, Mountain View, CA)
- Norah Jones (October, 2008 - Bridge School Benefit Concert, Mountain View, CA)
- Jack Johnson (October, 2008 - Bridge School Benefit Concert, Mountain View, CA)
- Neil Young (October, 2008 - Bridge School Benefit Concert, Mountain View, CA)
- Natalie Portman's Shaved Head (November, 2008 - San Francisco, CA)
- The Faith (November, 2008 - San Francisco, CA)
- Franz Ferdinand (December, 2008 - LIVE 105, Oakland, CA)
- Death Cab fo Cutie (December, 2008 - LIVE 105, Oakland, CA)
- Bloc Party (December, 2008 - LIVE 105, Oakland, CA)
- The Killers (December, 2008 - LIVE 105, Oakland, CA)
- Dan Deacon (April, 2009 - San Francisco, CA)





pra vir? No Doubt e The Sounds e mais 2 lindos festivais.

XIXI NO BANHO?

Ok, ninguém lê esse blog anyway...
Mas enfim, hoje meu amigo Raphael me mandou um link no orkut http://www.xixinobanho.org.br/
e eu pensei: xixi no banho? oi?
Eis que eu entrei no site e me apaixonei, a música é uma gracinha, o design demais, o site é uma belezinha (odeio escrever no diminutivo mas beleza ia ser estranho).
Enfim, a proposta do site é sobre meio-ambiente.
Falando para as pessoas fazerem xixi no banho, de preferência no começo, pois assim você economiza uma descarga por dia, imagina todo mundo que você conhece e por aí vai... quanta água por dia não economizaremos?
Além de responder perguntas frequêntes sobre o assunto, e dar mais dicas sobre como ajudar no meio ambiente.
Clica aqui, vale a pena.

love?

A slack jaw and single, heavy thud of my heart as I look between them
and realise the events that will follow.
A gulp as I swallow my fantasies for him and bury them deep.
A shrug as I shake off any unjust and un-entitled feelings of betrayal
that threaten to cloud her in my head.
" Its fine," I hear my brain whisper softly to my heart.
"He's not yours and she is great"

Crying would feel good, but I can't muster a single sob.
I wade through my pain with a bittersweet smile on my lips.
My love for him has long seemed unrealistic, but I had hooked my heart
on these silly dreams.
She is an easy friend. Funny, beautiful, social and sparky.
He obviously has seen this in her too.
Shame he never saw it in me.
Crashing into new realities hurt.

That would be me some years ago...




You know, it's hard for me.
I don't know and have no idea how to love again.
Sometimes I ask:
How old is love?
How hard is love?
What's love all about?
Does is hurt more than it hurted before?
Is it nice?
Is it warm?
Is it sweet?
Is it strange?
How do you find love?
Is it to hard to find?
And than someone just tells me: wait and you will find out with time.
The tome makes sense at all...
But you, I'm tired of all of this.

I like to spend my day/night doing list, I'm SUCH a list person, actually I made a list of everything!
E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G.
I mean, concerts, lovers, future, courses, things I like, places, even my future kids names, things that I wanna buy for my future house, kinda sick sometimes.
My host mom comes into my room and see all of those weird lists, look at me and tell me: OH OCD, you crack me up, smiles and go away!


by the way, isn't this old guy cute?

2009 GARANTIDO.

show me your genitals.

mimijo.

e nem a sua voz eu lembro mais, nem a sua voz...

The A-List

Nesse começo de ano, eu um dia não tinha o que fazer da vida e estava na biblioteca procurando livros. Já que eu sou muito uma pessoa sem minha época adolescente lendo livros adolescentes e sim Harry Potter, eu fui na sessão de YOUNG ADULTS, a.k.a. onde você acha livros de teenagers daqui, no estilo Twilight, Gossip Girl, It Girl. Eu amei Gossip Girl, li todos quando eu estava no Brasil e amo o seriado mesmo sendo totalmente diferente!
Enfim, lá estava eu na biblioteca e aí, eu vi uma coleção de livros que era Best Selling da NYTimes. Comecei a ler e não parei mais, leio o tempo inteiro, trabalhando, fazendo qualquer coisa, adoro.
A coleção se chama The A-List que é uma novel sobre meninas ricas de Beverly Hills, com pai famoso, outro que quer ser ator, a coldheart bitch, e todas essas coisas que tem em todos livros e mais uma menina que decide de mudar pra L.A. pra morar com o pai e ter novas aventuras. Anna, a menina que se muda pra L.A. é de Upper East Side no maior estilo patrician (não significa patricinha, por favor minha gente) e preppy girl from NY. Eu não paro de ler, não tem como, é daqueles livros que se lê em 3 dias. Bom se tiver a chance de ler, leia. Ainda mais se você curtiu Gossip Girl, é uma versão mais apimentada e mais louca que se passa na West Coast bitch.

PS: A escritora se chama Zoey Dean.